Reflection

Nothing is ever guaranteed in life; it is the inevitable. -Unknown-

   No matter how meticulous we plan everything to the last detail, things never go as planned that is for sure. It is a lesson I have learned numerous times and still relearn. I'm the type of person that likes to be in control, know all the variables included in situations and the outcomes. And when things do not go as planned, (although adventure sounds like fun), I get anxious. These past few months have flown by and it's crazy how some things have been out of my control, yet I'm still here as surpring as that sounds to me. The amount of times I have put myself out there, out of my comfort zone and actually been rewarded, connected with new individuals I can now call my friends, and had a good time makes me realize that it is okay to not know the results that will happen but to try anyways. In order to grow as a person all I can account for is what I do today. As much as I can plan, tomorrow is not guaranteed, so why not do the things I am afraid to do and make a few mistakes along the way, as long as at the end of the day I learn something new about how far I can push myself. It's scary to put myself out there, not knowing how others will react back, but I think the process of being vulnerable is necessary in order to grow. I say that so many times to everyone I come across, "do it in order to grow as a person" definitely gets repetitive but that is my attitude right now. I have done so many things to help others in their passion and achieve their goals in life, and I have always put myself and my needs as the lowest priority in the past; and that has greatly impacted how I view myself as a person. Now when my focus has shifted to my own self love and growth, I've had people tell me "I've changed." I'm glad people are noticing, because obviously I'm trying to change as a person. It's amazing the people that try to come back into my life when suddenly I am doing good things, am happier and achieving what I set out to do. I'm trying to be okay with the fact that not everyone I meet in life has my best intentions at heart, but if I have myself, understand my own comfort level I will be okay. I cannot see how others view me, but what is important is how I view myself. Nothing is guaranteed, so why not just put myself out there and trust the process. I can always hope for everyone to like me, to only receive love, yet sometimes that is not the case (which is scary to me) but that's what makes the journey of self love and life in general so worth it. Looking back a few months or even a year, and to see the growth and all of the things I have realized about myself makes me even more motivated to push harder to accomplish all that I want for myself. All I care about now, is to put love, positivity, and kindness out in the world, and it does not matter if I do not receive it back right away cause I've got more than enough for myself have to share it with the rest of the world and any one and everyone I come across. :)