THE POSITIVITY MINDSET

I am an awkward person. On the outside I seem to be completely positive and confident about myself, but that is far from it. I give so many life advices to so many of my friends but I can't seem to fix my own life. I just know how it feels to be sad and depressed, so I always make an extra effort to make others smile and laugh. I want them to feel good about themselves because that is something I can't do. People would never except me to sad because they only see the "happy" and motivating side of me. I tend to just hide and bottle up my emotions, making sure everyone around me in my life is okay. It sucks sometimes because I spend so much time and effort on others, being there for them and when it's my turn and I need someone, there's no one to turn to. Learned the hard way who my true friends are. It's a learning process, to love yourself. There are days where I wake up and I just don't want to try and make an effort to smile and make it seem lik...

Late post but I just found time to write this. OOPS! I wanted to just vent about the coming(now past) holiday of Halloween.  With Halloween comes the haunted house, scary movies, candy and of course dressing up in costumes. I've noticed growing up the meaning of Halloween changes and changes. Halloween from a child and a teenagers perspective is very very different. Which is a sad thing in my opinion. As a child growing up, I loved to raid my mom's closet and dress up like her. When Halloween would come by, it held unlimited amount of choices of what to be, even if it was just for the day. Halloween meant dressing up as someone you looked up to (e.g princesses and super heroes). Going to school in your Halloween costume was always a big deal for me. Getting up early and spending a great deal of time parading around the house semi dressed just excited that it was finally Halloween! School was spent doing Halloween activities and having a school-wide Halloween parade in th...